You stole my heart without realizing it
You conquered my heart in many different ways
Millions of flatters that I've ever felt
But never been touched by them, nobody impresses me
But everything is different
When you are here with me
Mesmerizing me always (in my heart)...
Only you can (make me feel)
Make me crazily delirious (for you)
Making me fall in love
Because no one will never be like you
Many times I've tried
To turn to other beautiful creatures
But I have never felt if I
As wonderful as making love with you.
*the song 'Hanya Kamu yang Bisa' is beautiful in english too*
Dedicated to Christian ;)
Monday, January 26, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Inspirations that comes from the heart
I do have this intuition about certain things.
I love being inspired, especially by someone that means a lot to me. I don't remember when I started to feel all unfocused and all, but certainly I've grown to make lots of ideas through drawings and words because of it.
This happened about 100years ago when I used to like N, the porn guy, I mean, the arse hole. Every time he would be walking passed me or doing something, I would watch him from afar, and imagining what it would be like to draw the contour of his body. Did couple of sketches, a few comic strips that made fun of him, at the same time, so in luuuurve with him (mind me, I think it was called 'Obsession') and until now, weirdly, I still think I got the hots for him...Not as much as before, but he was worth to look at.
Then comes this other guy, but even though I was totally, madly, crazy about him, somehow, I don't really feel the 'scar' of liking him anymore. I should still have that feeling because I always do!
Now, after a long time waiting, here comes B. He's HOT, **** so well, and looks like he's totally a sweetheart. I'm totally smitten by him...Aaaahhhh.....!
But...(of course there's always a but) I don't know him...Haha. He's in a **** and I fell for him when watching him **** ... On Tv (tsk! Typical of me). I mean, sure anytime I could meet him, if I wanted to. I've added his friend on a friendship website, and asked a couple of questions about B. But yet...It's still different when you don't even know the guy. Weird. I am, that is.
Suddenly, I'm beginning to write lyrics. Yeah, freaking 6 songs in total, 3 in english and 3 in Indonesian...And it's all because I am so fucked up by being restless on wanting to meet him in person.
Gotta admit, when I began to develop feelings about this guy (oh gawd! not feelings..) I actually said to myself "I'm sooo going to marry this guy". And every single day I did pray to God, that he is the ONE.
Then God showed me some signs, love Him because of that, but concerned at the same time. In a week time after all those foolish yet hope-it-would-come-true wishes, I began to know more about him.
He's got a different belief, and looks like he's a total faith believer, then came the hardest part. That's because I'm soo fucking curious about things. I found out that he doesn't like my species. Yup. That blew the shiiiT out of me. I wasn't thrilled when I found out about it. In fact, my curiosity grew bigger. And that is why, I wrote those darn songs.
Not all the songs are about him. It's about many things. From realizing your boyfriend is gay to starting a beautiful relationship with the person who taught you about love. Aaaaarrrgghhh....What becomes of me????
Basically, I still can't stop thinking about B. I think I might write more songs inspired by him. That's good. At least, I get to do something else than my present job. Totally into writing lyrics and loving it.
I love being inspired, especially by someone that means a lot to me. I don't remember when I started to feel all unfocused and all, but certainly I've grown to make lots of ideas through drawings and words because of it.
This happened about 100years ago when I used to like N, the porn guy, I mean, the arse hole. Every time he would be walking passed me or doing something, I would watch him from afar, and imagining what it would be like to draw the contour of his body. Did couple of sketches, a few comic strips that made fun of him, at the same time, so in luuuurve with him (mind me, I think it was called 'Obsession') and until now, weirdly, I still think I got the hots for him...Not as much as before, but he was worth to look at.
Then comes this other guy, but even though I was totally, madly, crazy about him, somehow, I don't really feel the 'scar' of liking him anymore. I should still have that feeling because I always do!
Now, after a long time waiting, here comes B. He's HOT, **** so well, and looks like he's totally a sweetheart. I'm totally smitten by him...Aaaahhhh.....!
But...(of course there's always a but) I don't know him...Haha. He's in a **** and I fell for him when watching him **** ... On Tv (tsk! Typical of me). I mean, sure anytime I could meet him, if I wanted to. I've added his friend on a friendship website, and asked a couple of questions about B. But yet...It's still different when you don't even know the guy. Weird. I am, that is.
Suddenly, I'm beginning to write lyrics. Yeah, freaking 6 songs in total, 3 in english and 3 in Indonesian...And it's all because I am so fucked up by being restless on wanting to meet him in person.
Gotta admit, when I began to develop feelings about this guy (oh gawd! not feelings..) I actually said to myself "I'm sooo going to marry this guy". And every single day I did pray to God, that he is the ONE.
Then God showed me some signs, love Him because of that, but concerned at the same time. In a week time after all those foolish yet hope-it-would-come-true wishes, I began to know more about him.
He's got a different belief, and looks like he's a total faith believer, then came the hardest part. That's because I'm soo fucking curious about things. I found out that he doesn't like my species. Yup. That blew the shiiiT out of me. I wasn't thrilled when I found out about it. In fact, my curiosity grew bigger. And that is why, I wrote those darn songs.
Not all the songs are about him. It's about many things. From realizing your boyfriend is gay to starting a beautiful relationship with the person who taught you about love. Aaaaarrrgghhh....What becomes of me????
Basically, I still can't stop thinking about B. I think I might write more songs inspired by him. That's good. At least, I get to do something else than my present job. Totally into writing lyrics and loving it.
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